“My husband has always been kind and caring, and so supportive and loving. I couldn’t wait to bring a child into this world together after we got married. I hoped that if we had a baby, the pain of suddenly losing his dad wouldn’t be so hard to bear if he had a son or daughter of his own to bond with. But it didn’t happen quickly or easily.
We went through all the tests, and poking and prodding to find out that he had nothing to do with all of our problems. The tests were great on his end. Through it all, he held my hand and dried all of my tears. He was there for all of the appointments he could manage, including the blood draws, just because he knew it made me feel better. He helped with the pain however he could. He catered to my every need after a surgery to hopefully help fix the issue.
Nobody asked him how he felt, how he was holding up. Nobody comforted him. Most days, not even me, because I was too consumed by my own despair over our struggles.
This man was the strong one in our relationship for three and a half years while we went through fertility struggles. He was my rock. The day we found out we were pregnant, I knew he was going to exceed my expectations as a dad. Immediately, he could not stop talking about our baby, and I was only 4 weeks along. He came to every single baby appointment, and he was thrilled every time we saw our son. It didn’t matter that all we saw was a teeny tiny ‘Bean’ shaped little being. His smile was all the way on.
We found out we were having a boy, and he was over the moon. Watching him talk about all the things he was going to show him, teach him, and do with him were some of the highest points in my pregnancy. Things that my husband’s dad had shared with him growing up. I hadn’t seen my husband look so excited about anything in a very long time.
Knowing that we were having a boy felt like something truly perfect, because I hoped that being able to have this father-son relationship and being able to pass down everything his dad had taught him might help him to feel closer to his dad again.
Today, our son is almost two, and this man is the absolute best dad! He gets so much joy out of fatherhood, and he is incredible with our son. Some of my absolute favorite motherhood moments are just watching my husband get a ton of giggles out of our son or watching the way my son lights up when daddy walks in the door.
Our little boy is truly our light, and I am so moved by the love that he and my husband share. I couldn’t dream of a better father figure for our little boy!”
– Kaila Dellinger